I am SO excited. Our new grandbaby is going to be a girl, due on 22nd June. After three sons and five grandsons and forty-two years waiting, this one is female!
The latest scan showed a beautiful baby-to-be growing nicely in the womb.
Yes, yes I know how lucky I am. Many people are not so blessed and truly I do appreciate it and I have loved all the little boys. I am one of 13 girl cousins and I remember my mum's reaction when she heard that the newest cousin was going to be a boy. My Uncle named him after Opa as a special gift.
I don't think this new baby will have my beautiful name because try as we have, her mum and I just don't get on. It happens! It's sad, but there it is. However another beautiful name will be chosen one of these days.
Last week I went into town and looked around. I was looking at girlie things and trying to get my head around the differences. In my loft is a lovely dolls' house, in its box because I haven't looked at it since I left America. She might like that. We can play with it together. How joyful.
My feelings were very mixed. I am happy and proud yet a bit jealous because I never had a daughter. I miss having a daughter when I see friends making arrangements to go places with theirs. Then there is the inevitable mother of the bride thing. Mothers of sons always come second place.
I was tempted to buy a few things but I resisted. It's too early. I mustn't but I can dream.